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A Long Goodbye In the Woods
Ode to Missing You
The alarm is set, but it is unnecessary because I haven’t slept a wink all night. I just lay there, my heart full, savoring the last night with you in the house.
I try to make myself as still as possible, so I can hear you breathe. Sometimes the bed creaks as you adjust your position in your sleep. Your presence is huge, filling up every inch of the little house.
You are leaving today.
We only have a few hours left, then you’ll be gone.
Far away, over several mountains and oceans, far from me.
I turn towards the clock on the nightstand. I’ve never wished for something stronger in my life than to have the power to freeze it right now.
Every moment with you will be engrained in my memory forever. Your smile, your laugh, even you just sitting at the breakfast table holding your mug filled with hot coffee and your hair still messy from sleep. Priceless. Precious. Because there is only one of you in the whole world.
The whole last day I tried to distract my mind from your upcoming departure.
We kept extra busy and enjoyed our time. I truly enjoyed myself, I did, and chased those blue thoughts from my mind. Only living for the moment. For a short time, I can pretend…
